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Nicholas Longden, a.k.a Neville Longbottom

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(Private entry) [Feb. 3rd, 2004|10:41 pm]
I don't know how long I can keep this up. Yes, it's stupid and possibly a very bad idea, but I can't help it. Things are getting way to hard for me to ignore.

I walked by her restaurant the other morning, stopped in front of the door, thought about going in about 10 bloody times before I changed my mind and left.

I can't sleep. It doesn't help that I know she's up to something. I just don't know WHAT!

DAMMIT GINNY, I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU!

If only I could bloody tell you...
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(no subject) [Jan. 27th, 2004|09:38 am]
[mood |grumpygrumpy]

I think I'm going to Hogwarts and meet with everyone there. I have to know what's happening.

Things in here are getting kind of out of control. Even some of my workers talk about these secret meetings and I wonder if I should go to one too. They've asked me of course, but I've managed to hold them off.

I haven't talked to Ginny in a while. I see her go out at night sometimes and one of these days, I'm going to follow her. It's wrong of me, I know and she would be very pissed at me for doing it.

But I just can't help it!

I've sent Hermione a Muggle post and I hope she understand what I'm saying. I know she will. She's the smart one out of all of us.
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{Private entry} [Jan. 22nd, 2004|04:03 pm]
[mood |worriedworried]

I have a bad feeling. It's something that I got ever since the War. Right at the back of my neck. For 3 days now it's been like that. I can't sleep. I keep thinking about Harry and where he could be.

But what I'm most worried about if Ginny. I know she's up to something. I just gotta figure out what!
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{Private entry} [Jan. 16th, 2004|08:03 pm]
[mood |frustratedfrustrated]

I just left Ginny over at her flat. She's shaken up about the recent events. Not that I blame her. First her father dies, then two people she knows go up and disappear on her. Then, we find out that they are being kept prisoners somewhere by Muggles no less!

I'm worried about her.

I know she's going straight to the kitchens now, probably making something that she likes. It's funny how she always cooks the dishes I like, even when I don't even tell her I'm visiting. Maybe it's that woman instinct you hear about.

If there's something that the War taught me, it was that you had to concentrate on what really mattered. Mostly, the people that are pointing their wands at you. But these are Muggles we're going to fight. They have their own weapons.

So why is that all I want to do is hold her in my arms and take her away from all this? I know why, I just can't tell her. Not now when things are as dangerous as they are and they can find out who we really are any day now.

What I really want is to go over there and just see her. She's so beautiful. Even more so now that she's older.

But what could she ever see in me?
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(no subject) [Jan. 15th, 2004|09:49 am]
There's no time like the present. I know it's weird to say that when all my friends keep disappearing, but sometimes, you just have to sit back and think.

What the fuck is happening? Have I been so blind that I missed what was happening? Why didn't I notice that Harry stopped showing up at Ginny's?

Well, Longbottom we know that answer to that one, don't we? If you've been paying attention to what was *around* you, instead of in front of you, then you wouldn't be asking such stupid questions!

Why thank you, my dearest conscience.

FUCK!

We just went over to Harry's and the place looks as if Harry just left it. We found a two letters there, one from Remus and one from Harry. The Remus letter didn't really give us a clue, but neither did Harry's.

I should have known the moment my Alohomora opened the bloody door!

The real shock came when we got to Remus's house. Door swinging wide open. The inside was a madhouse. I hadn't been here, except the one time, but I know it used to be very tidy indeed.

Thing is, if they found Remus here, that means they know what he is. It shouldn't surprise me if the Muggles could make their way to the Ministry. All the answers are there, the clues to who we all are.

All of us are in danger.

Even my own Muggle cover won't last long. I have to go to my shop and make up and excuse as to why I'll be away. I just hope it doesn't arouse suspicion.

I told Ginny and Ron that I wanted to go check on Hermione, maybe I'll even warn her if she hasn't noticed already. Ginny wanted to come with me so I agreed. I worry about her but I won't let that stop me from protecting her as much as I can. I know she can take care of herself and she would probably hex me if I told her otherwise.

But...I care if she gets hurt. She doesn't need to know how much I care, but I will do what I can for now.

Now, remind me to convince her to stop sleeping with fucking strangers!
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(Private entry) [Jan. 9th, 2004|07:19 pm]
Ginny came over last night because I was sick. Actually, I still am, but I feel just a little better today.

She brought me some chicken soup and gave me guilt if I didn't eat it. To tell the truth, I would have done anything she asked, just to have her stay.

Only problem is though, that I just hated to have her see me like that. I couldn't have looked worse! And my room was a bloody mess and she was in it. She cleaned it all up.

I sound like Malfoy, don't I?

She even put a warm, wet cloth on my forehead to make the fever go down.

I think it was the fever, but I know I wanted to kiss her.

It was probably a good thing that I fell back to sleep, otherwise I could have done something.

On the other hand, if I HAD done something, I could have just blamed it all on the fever.
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